Integrity with Ourselves

This morning, I was grateful to be stuck at home due to a weekend snowstorm.  Would have normally been out and about, but instead was having a cup of tea and listening to a podcast about extreme weight loss.  The guest speaker brought up the quality of integrity.

Integrity, by definition, means adherence to moral and ethical principles; soundness of moral character; and honesty.  Now who wouldn’t say they have integrity.  My initial reaction was “of course I do”…my words and promises are solid...at work…with my friends...everyday people.

But the next realization hit home.  Part of integrity is doing what you say you are going to do, when you say you are going to do it.  I could very well have integrity with everyone else in the world, but I don't think I've had integrity with myself. 

And then came a flood of thoughts about the health goals and promises I have made for myself…..sometimes I have kept them, sometimes I have not.  And those that I have not, have happened over and over again.

So, the next commitment for myself will be one of integrity.  I’ll be starting with one simple goal of getting on the treadmill every single day at 6 am.  It doesn’t matter for how long or how intense, at this point.  It’s not going to be so much about the actual exercise, but of the commitment to myself….and then building upon it. 

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Reference: Food for Fitness 106: Extreme Weight Loss, The Challenges of Losing More Than 200 lbs (Part 1) – with Chris Powell, podcast, 3 April 2018, https://www.foodforfitness.co.uk/podcast/106/

The Embarrassment of Obesity

I’ve traveled the world as an obese person.

Many, many airplanes.  A Russian train. An Indigenous boat in the Philippines. 

I’ve slept on the floor of a family’s yurt in Mongolia.  Walked the streets of Indian cities.  And been approached by many a Japanese tourist for a picture they want to take with a big American girl (basically three times the size of everyone else).

Yet the thought of walking across a stage…..to receive a nutrition degree….as an obese person.....is one of the most frightening things I’ve ever encountered.

Yesterday, I realized that I have not told many people that for the past 2 and half years I’ve been taking night classes to receive a Masters in Clinical Nutrition Intervention.  It was a way for me to build up knowledge so that I could help others with their weight loss goals - to be able to advise beyond what my personal experiences have been, with evidence-based information. 

The classes went by really fast – and I now have one final project to complete before receiving the degree.  But I’ve delayed it.  I froze in the realization that I had built up all this education to help others….but had not yet focused it in on myself.

It might take a little extra time, but when I walk across the stage, it won’t just be about obtaining a degree.  It will be about the confidence that I've built in both mind and body. Freedom from the embarrassment that I didn’t know I had, and how I chose to respond to it.

  

“Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.” - Principle of Victor Frankl

Time to Recalibrate

In a world of constant speed, recalibration periods are almost critical to keep yourself on track towards your goals.  Sometimes they are planned time periods – say, a week away at a cabin.  Sometimes they are unplanned – getting a cold and having to spend a lot of time in bed.  The latter, is where I am at the moment. 

I found myself reflecting about how I have lost momentum on some of my goals.  I started thinking about various elements, realizing it’s been a while since I’ve had focus on them.  With January typically being a time that everyone starts their resolutions….I am starting by recalibrating my thoughts. 

What kind of things do I need to build into my routine?  It doesn’t have to be counting calories and hitting the gym every day (yet, haha).  But perhaps it should be cutting certain foods out.  Eating at home versus going out.  Or simply starting to build a daily routine again, in general.

Are the people I am hanging around with supporting or distracting me from my goals?  This is a tough one. Especially in the dead of winter, when there aren’t a lot of options to be social that don’t involve ingesting food and drink. But putting thought into who I have on the support side, tends to remind me there are other options…especially on days when all I want to be is distracted.

How can I remind myself of the positive, when I feel like I’m in a hole of negativity?  Things may not be going right at the moment, but there’s positivity I can pull from the past...What are some of the successes I can use again....What have I learned from the times I have fallen down....What should I pick up and start doing again.

These are just surface level thoughts at the moment.  Deep dives into the depths will come with time, and shared in this form as much as possible.  But what I’m realizing is how important it is to build in short bursts of recalibration.  Twenty minutes in the morning listening to music to start the day.  Ten minutes here and there writing a few thoughts down.  An hour having coffee with someone you just like to be around. Or simply, 5 minutes of breathing or meditation.  All or any should help recalibrate the pace of life, and steer me back into the direction of my goals.